its all self contradictory.

i made the choice myself, but now i regret.

regrets regrets regrets. is there anyway i can get them out of my life?

bad decisions, mistaken judgements, all are part of life. as much as i hate them, i have to accept the fact that all these stuff are still part of life. without bad things, we wont understand wad good truely means.

so face the next day with a smile and enthusiasm.

im off to do my mountain of hw now. all distractions, get lost pls!

alrite, its gonna be yet another happy day tmw. :D

you'll never know how bad something really is until you've experienced it yourself.

lol juz sumthing i realised today, after sch.

really got not much time to blog this few days, always reach home abt 7 plus, then do sum hw, feel sleepy, wash face brush teeth, sleep. everyday oso lidat. no time to play until weekends! but its alrite for me, coz i kind of like this kind of life. haha i dun mind sleeping late everyday when i can see all my frens the very next day.

and so i think tmw is gonna be yet another good day. i hope theres english remedial, then everyone can study together again. =D

received chinese CT marks today, quite pleased with my marks. many ppl from 3/3 failed, luckily i passed. got 64 marks, highest from the class is 68.

highest from 3/4 is 73 if im not rong. and theres 3 of them! wah wads going on!?

lol nah its ok lah anyway i passed im contented liao thinking bout how many ppl failed. for those that failed the test, try harder next time! for those that passed, be humble!

ah and after sch, some thing happened but i shan't mention wad happened.

step on it some more bah. im ok with it. =D

i wonder how ppl sell those sea dragon things in a package. its quite interesting how come the eggs can hatch and the hatchlings can grow into small fish like things 1 cm long. hmmmm maybe i should go find out more abt them.

see everyone again tmw!

hehehe went to library today to do some work.

it was fun meeting everybody again, see everybody smile and laugh.

next week on again!

theres an addition to the family yesterday!
hahaha not what u'll think, its tat my sis's fren gave her a new black hamster. omg its dam cute lah. the cheeks for some reason always so fat de. then when sleeping it will roll up like a ball.

heres a picture i took of it.

its called charcoal. lol its dam cute man!

"let me out!!" says brownie(the name of the brown one) hehe

my mum today oso clearing up her room and found this 100 year old game console.

wooo it comes with 2 controllers and a gun! coolness! wonder if it still works

i think my house is turning into a zoo. 3 hamsters, 18 fishes, used to have 1 rabbit budden gave it away le.

haha sumtimes juz by observing very usual stuff arnd u can be so much fun.

lessons starting tmw,

CHINATOWN!!

yay im back from the camp!

the camp was seriously fun, nothing i've ever experienced before. solo night walk was cool, high rope elements, team activities. i must say, the only thing that affects the amount of fun that we have, is how enthu we are.

and 3 days flew pass really quickly, with a campfire last night. today was kind of hard for us to bear with pulau ubin and the instrustors, everyone was in some way sad that we had to leave to resume our usual lives and for some, tears were even shed. but it was a really enriching experience, i learned alot and im sure everybody feels the same as me.

during the camp, i saw many kinds of strong characters, many different strenghts and weaknesses of ppl, including myself. i must say, chek goo (how to spell??) is a really good leader and a very good ppl manager.

everybody dance now!
boom, clap, boom
2 times!
boom, boom, clap, boom
3 times!
boom, boom, clap, boom, boom, clap, boom, boom, clap, boom
lets break it down now!
boom, clap, boom, boom, clap, boom, boom, clap, boom, boom, clap

Oolaalaaa....~

hahaha yea and so the camp ends with a few tear drops, lots of new frens, many many gd experiences and a whole lot of body aches.

it feels good to be back home, but i wanna go back to ubin again!!

yea man, lessons are beginning this sunday!

library tmw!

adverse situations.
when one is put in an adverse situation, he or she truely matures and gains understanding of how the human mind works, how to be more sensitive to others and how to manage ppl.

if it doesnt, kill you, it makes u much stronger in the mind and body.

lvl camp's tmw!

seems to me like im the only one whose excited among the rest of my frens. hmmm camps are supposed to be fun, so im looking forward to it. even though the ppl we're camping with isnt as close as last year, its a gd chance to get to noe sum of our new classmates.

but not to forget, share the enjoyment with 2/5 classmates!

hehehe im getting all high and excited that i cant sleep! weeee i love camps!!!!

see everybody tmw!

work load everyweek is increasing week by week man.

cant afford to spend so much time on the computer anymore. gotta spend more time on wads concrete, like homework or music.

problem is, i cannot concentrate! i cant sit down for more than 1 hour doing homework.

but anyways, we gotta buy new shirts and pants soon! esp those with lots and lots of BIG pockets! hahahaha CNY is the time to collect ang paos!!

sec 3 level camp is wednesday. how i missed the times we had in sec 2 nyaa camp with the rest of the class. hmmm can we do this camp again? i wish we could.

bear in mind that when i say i miss 2/5, i dun mean i dun wanna make new frens with my new classmates yea? so yea. kind of late liao. i think i gonna sleep soon le.

gd nites ppl!

went to ben's today to celebrate wj's birthday. great fun gathering everyone tgt to celebrate. i really, REALLY want more of such gatherings.

we played playstation, mahjong, pig game, cut birthday cake, very fun. but too bad there wasnt any ctr... yea sad.

took a few pictures today but im dam lazy to post them up. i dont noe y.

did alot of thinking juz now. seems that everyone's doing alot of thinking, just like me. hmmmm. wads going on?

sometimes i wonder...
Am i good enough...
Do i have to constantly value add my self...
Will i ever get a chance to do some thing...
Can i just be myself...




for you.



Is it fate?

Or maybe i am just thinking too much.

Common test today was total crap. dunno y i have a tendency to fall asleep during common tests. ><

mum ordered a new desk for me. its arriving on thursday. thanks mum.

dun feel like posting anything today so im gonna stop rite here. gonna sleep quite soon. ncc tmw. CNC! here i come!

juz got my hair cut in the morning. lol everyone keep saying how come my hair nver get caught. make me scared. sian man the barber once again cuts very little, look as if nver cut liddat.

i juz realised that my new class is dam quiet. its not like when we were in 2/5, every lesson so noisy and theres always laughter. now all that has changed.

i miss all the ppl from 2/5 man. i miss the noisy lessons then there will always be somebody who would shout QUIET! i miss the lame jokes we crack in class. i miss my mischeivous and fun classmates who i only get to see during recess and after school now.

and tats y i cant wait to get back in sch tmw to see everybody.

weee the open hse was dam fun.

our booth was quite successful, cept for the fact that the projector broke down halfway and the ppl were not able to see ncc's very nice power point. other than that the skit went well, many audiences, we all did a very gd job.

well done ncc!

hmmm its fun sometimes to participate in this kind of stuff. get to noe all the ccas, get to do something for ur own cca, crap arnd, ya.

sunday tmw, im left with 2 chinese bao zhang bao dao and 4 mindmaps. gonna chiong all tmw. i love homework! keeps me occupied, keeps my family from nagging, gives me sumthing to discuss with my frens with! gimme some more!

I WANNA PLAY PIG GAME!!!

ok tats random. but can we like find a day when everyone can stay back and then we go one class and play pig tgt? (aiyah dunno wad tat game is called lah what level 1 pig to levl 7 pig tat one? sounds fun leh)

ok im off to play abit of games. its time to relax after a looong and tiring day of work.

bbyes ppl! kind of high today yea?

bobo signing off!

just came back from ncc juz now. we stayed in sch till ard 7.30.

tmw is the CCA open hse. NCC will be doing a short skit for the sec 1s to see what's so fun abt ncc. its kind of a funny skit, shoot here shoot there, die, the usual stuff.

did CNC juz now. (it stands for comand and control) made me understand how hard it is to stand in front of a platoon and give them commands and such. it takes a whole lot of practice and high confidence.

practiced for the skit till im dam tired now liao. super tired. i think i need to sleep soon but wait. dam my uniform and my boots.... guess i wont be sleeping until 11.

be back tmw to talk abt the open hse.

dam tired.

today is the first day of sch in 2007

a very hectic day for me, went to sch early at 6.30, got briefed and stuff, had breakfast, listen to talk, icebreackers, teached sec ones how to tie their ties, lunch, played games with them.

this year's sec ones look very cute, or maybe we oso looked as cute when we were in sec 1. nonetheless majority of them were quite enthu, a few look scared, a few quiet quiet, the rest still very participative during the cheers and games.

hmmm i have yet to see wad my classroom looks like. looking forward to tmw. heard of my subject teachers, feel quite satisfied, saw the new timetable, not satisfied. it ends at like...4.30pm? wth i'd rather not have that 10 min break between each class man.

today has been a tiring day, got to noe sum new sec 1s. cant wait to start lessons, see how our teachers are like and what the subject is abt. wonder who are my new class mates... hmmmm

alrite gonna sleep early today again, its raining now but its gonna be a bright,bright sun shiny day tmw.

off to sleep. zzzzZ

haiz...just as one problem gets solved, yet another one arrives.

appearing out of nowhere, you juz fetch me home liddat. first thing's first, wheres my freedom? is there a lack of trust between us? why can't you trust my sight, i know who my friends are. wait, let me rephrase that: i KNOW my friends. why is it that in your eyes, playing basketball every saturday morning, hanging out together to talk is bad behaviour? don't sis and bro do it too? is it because of my age? is 15 years old still considered young? yes, i know i lack of experience and i may not have the wisdom to see through my friends, but at least trust me. if i fall, i WILL bring myself back up. sometimes people really DO have to learn it the hard way ya know? that's all im asking for, trust.

sometimes ppl have to see the importance of interacting with one another. humans are social creatures afterall, we need to communicate. that's what makes us different from other mammals. so why is it that in your mind, a good boy would go to school, attend lessons, after school immediately rush home to do revision. why would you think that recess and breaks are enough for us to interact?

when i was still in sec 1 and 2, i did not see the importance of interaction. after school, first thing i wanted to do was to rush home. for that i did not communicate much with my friends, and did not have any close friends at all. since sec 2 mid year, i started hanging out with friends. its only then that i realised how much i did not know about the human mind, and how much i did not know about myself. i feel that its only through interaction can we discover more about others and ourselves. when you communicate, you see the different problems ppl face, what they do when they encounter such problems and through these you see what his or her personality is.

its not about talking cock, its about knowing more about each other, not out of curiosity, but out of care and a willingness to help. so please don't try labeling something before knowing what this something really is.

i know you're concerned, and i really appreciate it. really. im someone who thinks more than i speak, and i do listen with due respect and reflect when you talk. but all i need is some trust. no one is perfect, and i admit i do make mistakes often. but please, have faith in me that i can learn from my mistakes.

alright, that's all i have to say. i wont let this affect my mood. im still a happy person!

hoping for a better day tomorrow.

HAPPY NEW YEAR PPL!!

1st jan 2007. nice date man.

went to yz's yesterday nite to play, had fun there. too bad i couldnt stay overnite, but it doesnt matter.

hmmm lets see...

woke up at 11, ate 'breakfast' then went on to wrap my new txtbooks. when i was wrapping my books, i thought abt the many things that happened last year, stuff like seeing ms loh cry, participating in the sch funfair, playing in the interclass frisbee competition, winning the creative show... so much fun we had tgt. it has been a great year, and now we must leave it behind and move on to 2007.

for me, will be looking forward to 2007, many new and exciting stuff in store for us as sec 3s. taking over the company, going for courses, learning new subjects. new classmates, new teachers, new environment. will be looking forward to all of these, but also keep in my mind the fun we had tgt as 2/5 '06. definitely will keep in contact with everyone.

now its 2007. we're upper sec now! bring it on! i will take on whatever is thrown at me!! sec3, HERE I COME!!!