haiz...just as one problem gets solved, yet another one arrives.

appearing out of nowhere, you juz fetch me home liddat. first thing's first, wheres my freedom? is there a lack of trust between us? why can't you trust my sight, i know who my friends are. wait, let me rephrase that: i KNOW my friends. why is it that in your eyes, playing basketball every saturday morning, hanging out together to talk is bad behaviour? don't sis and bro do it too? is it because of my age? is 15 years old still considered young? yes, i know i lack of experience and i may not have the wisdom to see through my friends, but at least trust me. if i fall, i WILL bring myself back up. sometimes people really DO have to learn it the hard way ya know? that's all im asking for, trust.

sometimes ppl have to see the importance of interacting with one another. humans are social creatures afterall, we need to communicate. that's what makes us different from other mammals. so why is it that in your mind, a good boy would go to school, attend lessons, after school immediately rush home to do revision. why would you think that recess and breaks are enough for us to interact?

when i was still in sec 1 and 2, i did not see the importance of interaction. after school, first thing i wanted to do was to rush home. for that i did not communicate much with my friends, and did not have any close friends at all. since sec 2 mid year, i started hanging out with friends. its only then that i realised how much i did not know about the human mind, and how much i did not know about myself. i feel that its only through interaction can we discover more about others and ourselves. when you communicate, you see the different problems ppl face, what they do when they encounter such problems and through these you see what his or her personality is.

its not about talking cock, its about knowing more about each other, not out of curiosity, but out of care and a willingness to help. so please don't try labeling something before knowing what this something really is.

i know you're concerned, and i really appreciate it. really. im someone who thinks more than i speak, and i do listen with due respect and reflect when you talk. but all i need is some trust. no one is perfect, and i admit i do make mistakes often. but please, have faith in me that i can learn from my mistakes.

alright, that's all i have to say. i wont let this affect my mood. im still a happy person!

hoping for a better day tomorrow.