haha ok time to update. my blog's dying already.

dun really noe what to blog abt, but maybe i'll juz tell ya guys abt the pass few days.

friday:
went for games day. enjoyed myself, was in the eco race haha. after games day we went to watch pursuit of happyness. i was really happy, coz many many ppl went! was a really meaningful show, got lots of substance put into it. very worth watching for you guys out there who just cant find a reason to smile. you gotta work for it. yep, and it was a great day.

saturday:
went to sch for meeting, after tat went to library. supposed to do hw, but turns out that i only manage to touch 1 question. haha guess i cant really concentrate when im outside my hse. but, anyway my main objective there wasn't to complete my hw, but to meet up once again with everyone and have some time tgt. haha we had fun tgt alrite.

today:
hmmm went to watch wj's hair being cut. haha the aunty was friendly, maybe i'll consider going there for a cut nxt time. then went to wj's hse. its been a long time since i visited his hse, and it kinda brought back some nice memories. tekken5 and DON! haha some day lets go bowling at zhen's condo!

haha its kinda ironic. holidays. hmmm its a one week break, but it seems to me that the only day i have a break is thursday. the rest of the days, im busy with other stuff. hmmmm but still, it feels gd to have march holidays.

lets go out again sometime this week!

did quite alot of self reflection today.

sometimes i say that thinking too much is not good. what i actually meant, was that everybody must think and self reflect, but during this time, think of solutions to your problems whatsoever, and not dwell upon the causes of these problems, as that would lead to even more problems.

today, i finally realised how far behind i was. people arnd me noe what they're doing, and me, i'm clueless abt my stuff, i dont understand my work, i dont noe why im doin it.

i thought abt it, its all a chain reaction. you lose ur attention during one lesson, dont catch what the teacher says, dunno how to do the homework, dont understand the topic, which all eventually leads to failure to understand the whole chapter.

tats y i finally noe why every lesson, no matter how insignificant it is, is very important.

i wanna catch up with the rest, i wanna do well in my studies. i've been distracted by too many things the past 2 months, and its time i woke up and start to pia. for the past 2 months, i had the energy, and willingness, but all i needed was motivation.

now that i've got my motivation back, nothing can come between me and my grades anymore.

determination. i'm going back to study for tmw's hist test.

games day in 2 days. for some reason im not excited yet. well, nevermind.

sigh...

feeling very bored today. i don't know how to describe it, but its just sian...

im trying very hard to suppress this feeling, but no matter how hard i try, its still there, when i do my work halfway, i find myself losing concentration. games cant take away this wierd feeling. i dunno, it just feels weird when you dont do sumthing that u usually do everyday.

hmmmm wonder how i can get rid of this feeling. im not sad, nor disappointed whatsoever, its just totally weird. hmmmm.

weird. i wish i can be like i used to be, carefree and free of any worries.

nonetheless, tmw's a maths CT, and for the first time i feel so free that i can study for it. so im gonna practise some problems and aim for an a1 for tmw's test.

wish me luck!