did quite alot of self reflection today.

sometimes i say that thinking too much is not good. what i actually meant, was that everybody must think and self reflect, but during this time, think of solutions to your problems whatsoever, and not dwell upon the causes of these problems, as that would lead to even more problems.

today, i finally realised how far behind i was. people arnd me noe what they're doing, and me, i'm clueless abt my stuff, i dont understand my work, i dont noe why im doin it.

i thought abt it, its all a chain reaction. you lose ur attention during one lesson, dont catch what the teacher says, dunno how to do the homework, dont understand the topic, which all eventually leads to failure to understand the whole chapter.

tats y i finally noe why every lesson, no matter how insignificant it is, is very important.

i wanna catch up with the rest, i wanna do well in my studies. i've been distracted by too many things the past 2 months, and its time i woke up and start to pia. for the past 2 months, i had the energy, and willingness, but all i needed was motivation.

now that i've got my motivation back, nothing can come between me and my grades anymore.

determination. i'm going back to study for tmw's hist test.

games day in 2 days. for some reason im not excited yet. well, nevermind.